Tall Buildings but Low Confidence ;

HI BABES .

I'm so tired tonight , but i shall update my blog before i k.o. 

Anyway , my k2 kids have been my absolute pride and motivation to wake up early and go for this attachment thing . 

I swear they are the most adorable bunch i've met . 

Like , i saw them preparing for their graduation concert (holy shit my babies are growing up so fast) and it is sooooo cute . 

In that moment i really felt like i'm seeing a new side of them , and i was almost crying because i was so damn proud of them . 

One day they might be a fan of my blog and they'll read on how i felt of them . ;)

But yeah , here's to K2-Love of PCF Sembawang . 

Thank you for making my days easier . 

Oh . And , before i left , i saw them gathering in the gym room in their home clothes for extra dance practice . 

THEY JUST STARTED THIS THING LIKE "HI TEACHER JOY" and suddenly everyone was greeting me . 

My heart totally melted into a puddle . 

And one of the girls hugged me first , then everyone came up to me . 

GUYS . 

THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO WAY IN HELL YOU COULD REJECT THAT .

They are so adorbs . 

And like , holy shit . 

They have me in love with them . 

Not even near kidding . 

Jerry , Nicas , Qistina and Reena are kinda my bias because they are closer to me and approach me more , but i can safely say i think Jia En and Denise are pretty cute . No . Like . Pretty AND cute . 

My god .

These kids are killing me and i feel like i'm suffering withdrawal symptoms from them . 

... And tkd . 

Lately i haven't had much time to myself because of my babies and the attachment thing , but i'm really quite happy now . 

I haven't been happier to spend time with a whole bunch of kids actually . 

But tonight it's been a "think about how i've spent the week" kinda night and i'm pretty sad . 

Cos . 

I don't think i remember having anything near the "i'm in love with this person/these people" kinda feel anymore and it's like . 

Idek if i remember how that feels . 

I don't know why i don't like anyone , or feel for anyone . 

I forgot how to determine if i really like someone , or if i have a crush , or anything . 

I THINK MY HEART TURNED TO STONE . 

This is literally so serious right now . 

I've been trying to figure myself out for sometime now . 

IT'S NOT WORKING . URGH . 

So pissed with myself . 

Why can't i think more for myself . 

Anyway , i've been having a guardian pick me up from attachment for the past 2 days now . 

Wonder how long this combo can get . 

BUT I WOULD LIKE TO CLARIFY THAT I'D DO FINE WITHOUT MY GUARDIAN OK . 

I'M A BIG GIRL (don't give me the "that's what they all say" shit) . 

I'm 17 . :3

But seriously . I'm 17 . 

And about 4 and a half months away from my 18th birthday . 

I'm not sure if i'm still throwing a party .. 

But i really want a eat-fest on my birthday . 

Like , just go out and eat ALLLLL the food i want to and stuff my face with food . 

//thumbs up//

Ok guys i miss you so much . 

I miss taekwondo . 

I miss T05 . 

I miss 6Courage . 

I miss Claudia . 

I miss Qiaoxuan .

Oh gosh i can't wait to meet everyone . 

Joy