Blessed but Stressed ;

hi guysssss .
have i ever told you how happy i am where i am now ?
because i am so . so . happy to be here .
i may not like some people in this school .
i may not like some things about where i am now .
i may not like what i experienced in the past .
i may not like myself .

but i am so thankful for all of these . without one of them , i may not be here now . or maybe i may not be who i am now .

and though i hate myself (y'all should know how low my self-esteem is by now), i am so glad who i am brought me here now .
i am sooooo blessed to be with the people i'm with now.
and i'm thankful for the things i am in love with now .
and for all the people i'm in love with spending time with .

grateful for my T05 girls , grateful for NPTKD , grateful for Deer Family , grateful for 6Couragers .
grateful for Claudia, Qiaoxuan, Junhao, Shawn, Chester, Arif, Justin, Cedric .
(so sad, i can't even give this group of friends a name LOL . all scattered everywhere)

but i'm so blessed to be where i am now .
i'm so happy to have girls who get sad when i have to leave first .
happy to have team mates who care .

while i have my ups .
i have my downs .

i'm pretty pressured by my assignments .
this week is flooded with consultations and assignment due dates .
i can't stand it .
u g h .
and like .
yeah .
exams and shit .

and the lack of sleep is just killing me with the weirdest thoughts at the weirdest times .

and people from the past haunts me now and then .

but i'm good .
still good .

Joy