Hide Away ;

Wow these few weeks has been full of emotions but today is nothing to do with others LOL.
So.
I realised that people around me are never going to be happy with who i am as a person.
(yes finally)

I'm always too calculative, or too stupid.
I'm either too kind, or too selfish.
I'm probably going to also be too nice or too cold.

I have never been able to find a middle ground, kinda a more extreme kinda girl yknow.
HAHAHA.

But yeah i've finally accepted the fact that people are just never going to be happy with me.

That i'll never be enough for some people and it's going to take time for me to be okay with that.

Credit: @witchoria

I wish it was easier to tell myself to be okay with others' thoughts.
They didn't even matter that much to me, i didn't even matter to them, why should i hear what they say about me.
Why should i care about those weird gazes that land on me just because i'm trying to be okay ?

Why should i be bothered that i'm comfortable and they are not okay seeing me okay ????

I know it's kinda a weird limbo between wanting to be me and try to be okay, and also letting other people think i'm okay.
LOL.

But i have not found the balance between the two yet and somehow i find myself falling into the traps they laid for me. :')
Heh.

I guess we fall and we try again right ???

I've been coming back to this square alot and i really hope this time i will find enough strength in myself to walk far enough to never come back here again !

I hope one day i'll be completely okay with being who i am, or who i want to be, without a care in the world for the eyes that will stare at me with disdain, or the lips that will gossip endlessly about what i do.

I hope one day we'll all be okay.







And perhaps when we're all okay,
maybe they'll finally see that i was okay all along.


Joy