Them feels ;

today was not at all productive .

but i was extremely happy today .

i spent the morning whatsapp-ing .

idk i am just extremely into whatsapp now that Justin is overseas .

like , we can't text or whatever so whatsapp has come in really useful .

in fact , i don't think i have ever used whatsapp so much .

(is that normal ?)

ok maybe i read the convos my class group has .

but honestly , i don't reply at all .

i just keep my comments to myself because i kinda don't like the class .

i have no idea why but it just reminds me alot of my socially awkward self .

like , when i still had the urge to run away from class .

(which isn't too far back actually)

i was texting Khairul and Gerwyn as well .

HAHAHAHA YOU SEE THE PATTERN ?

i rarely mention any secondary school friends on here as well hahahaha .

i actually don't .

except for Qiaoxuan and Claudia and maybe the scholars and a few other close friends i guess .

today i met up with Qiaoxuan and i am so glad we did .

i went to her church and i was listening really closely to the presenter .

his story was so upsetting i actually feel like running up to him and hug him actually .

but i can say i feel him in some ways .

like .

how he never actually got to suicide even though life was hell for him .

and how he actually didn't have the courage to .

hmmmm .

you probably can't imagine me being socially awkward and suicidal right ?

but i was exactly like that at one point in time .

i am so . glad i am over that phase .

i now have so much more to look forward to in life and i am so happy to be alive everyday .

(i sound really christian but i'm not actually)

i am actually buddhist but i agree with alot of things that christians believe in .

you can say i accept religious views really well .

i literally don't care whether you're catholic , buddhist , atheist , christian , hindu or what .

if i like your personality , if we're friends , i accept you for everything you are including your religion hehehehe .

i actually feel super empty right now and i have no idea why .

errrrr .

nothing fills me up and i am sooooooo upset . 

T.T

what is wrong with my brain now LOL .

i miss Claudia sooooo much .

wlao .

but on the other hand , i am pretty excited for monday .

(yes i type this with a poker face)

and i am hooked on "What You Know" by Two Door Cinema Club .

just because Afif sang a small part of it and posted it on instagram .

CAN I EMPHASISE HOW GOOD HIS SINGING WAS ?

i am crazy in love with his voice HAHAHAH .

haiz .

...

what to do with the rest of the night nowwww .

no life no nothing siah .

=_=

I AM SUCH A BORING PERSON .

i will be such a workaholic in future just to fill the empty spaces in my life .

jialat siah .

i think i shall go back to whatsapp and see what's up .

i really can't socialise well .

oh , this reminds me .

i messaged Shawn (from TPRAWKS . i know alot of Shawns.) today and i can't say it turned out really well but let's just say i'll probably be meeting him soon and i am soooooo happy . :D

i mean , I MISS FUSION MAN .

omg it's so horrible that i didn't get into TP .

i bet when i meet him he confirm suan me tillllllllll .

but i know he misses me hehehhehehe .

-zi kua max lor-

omg i am missing out on so much .

JC people start their lectures alr and i'm just like , what is school . can i download it .

i have no idea what it feels like to be part of a "School" .

...

I AM SUCH AN AWKWARD TURTLE WTF .

I LIVE UNDER A ROCK .

like patrick .

i love patrick .

mwahs for you ~

Joy