Lost in memories ;

HIYA .

Today is my off day and i'm really happy and idk why . 

I had alot of me time with myself today although i spent 3 hours in the bustling crowd of Causeway point . 

I borrowed a book on Child Psychology and started on it . 

Just so i have a gist of my life in poly . 

I also bought a new notebook meant for that . 

Idk but i love doing notes and it makes me happy to see colourful words . 

And simplified texts .

I also kinda miss studying so that'll get me back on track . 

I have been in a really bad mood previously . 

I have no idea why i'm such a stubborn bitch . Haiz . 

And with this i refer to my problem with the human and not Keon . 

I have no regrets on my last post . 

Idk but i have a feeling it's time for me to actually clear up my mind about people around me . 

I'm tired of being left out on people's porches and just go from one porch to another porch like i'm homeless . 

I don't want to stand out on other people's corner in the pouring rain anymore . 

Why can't somebody do that for me instead . 

I HAVE A HOME . 

I HAVE FAITH . 

I also have love and i have people that care for me . 

So maybe it's time to ditch those who can't be bothered . 

If a new year is a new beginning , i want to start by making things clear to myself that there are just some people i should stop keeping in touch with no matter how much i would love to keep them in my lives because that'd be caging them . 

And that'd be mean .

So i am not gonna try . 

If you are gonna stay then you'll make an effort to . 

So i have tried to stay in others' lives , and since they don't need or want my presence then begone , Joy , begone ! 

Joy is an unwanted person . 

Psh . 

But that's ok . 

At least if i ever run away from this shitty place , i know somebody will run away with me . 

I know there will be people sharing my pain and that's all i need to know . 

I am unable to be like "bitch you have no idea what you're missing out on  , I'M AMAZING" because i don't think i'm worthy , but i know you'll have one less person to cares . 

I will now make my effort to stay in this human's life before i regret it . 

Even if it means dropping my ego and pride (since i don't have much from the start LOL) 

Mwahs for you . <3

Btw , did i ever mention how good an advisor JR is ? 

Because i think he deserves to be known for that haha ! ;)

Look who just posted our photo on prom together on facebook ? 

I like this picture actually . 

THANKS DANIEL . 

I miss Claudia and Qiaoxuan and Jowelyn and Rona and whoever who went to JC so much man .

Wlao when are we gonne meet up again . T.T 

I MISS MY BBYS SO MUCH . GAH . 

Joy