Kiss You Silly ;
HEY WASSUP.
I actually dk how long it has been since i last posted.
And also how long it has been since i was this obsessed with an idol HAHAHA.
Gosh everything he does is damn cute la.
And i cannot stand how he looks so so so so SO good in glasses.
Damn cute hahahhahaha.
How much God must love him to bless him with such heaven-sent looks.
-dies-
BUT I FIND THESE PICTURES VERY ATTRACTIVE.
I think he is cute too but yknow i just like Mino (the guy above) better.
Winner (the name of the group these 2 cuties are in) is going to be the death of me hahahhaa.
His photos are very my style.
Slightly grainy (?) and faded ?
Kind of give me the vintage feel.
I appreciate it alot.
I just love those photos alot.
It would be so meaningful if one day i went travelling and documented all my journeys with these photos.
I'd display them all over my room.
And drift into dreams with the best memories all laid out.
Oh but going back to the boys, i just think they are really cute HAHAHA.
Probably will hyperventilate if i ever got to witness their perfection in reality but damn.
For now, pictures are more than enough to kill me HAHHAHA.
Ok but i just ended my attachment recently and i already miss the children.
On the last day i swear it was a losing battle between me and my tears but i only teared up a little and i did not bawl my eyes out even though i really thought i would have.
I'm pretty glad to know i have some self-control over myself.
(It sounds so pathetic, like i've never fully been in control of myself -- but i assure you i am most of the time ya)
And and and things haven't been going too smoothly for me with regards to relationships with people but i feel like i've been there and done that so i'm actually not as affected.
I have come to accept the fact that my personality is not something everyone will like and some people prefer quieter and more calm people, or just someone who is not me.
I get it.
I just don't feel like i would deserve any obvious signs of hate at least.
At the very least, i do not feel like i have shown any amount of dislike towards the people who disdain me.
And while i assure you that i am in control of myself most of the time, it is also assured that i am the scariest when i get angry while i am in control.
Because that probably means i've weighed out the pros and cons of doing what i am doing and it shows that losing that person means no shit to me and it would never be a big deal.
So basically you're not enough for me.
I rarely get that feel, but i obviously learnt from past mistakes that some people just don't deserve it i guess.
I don't want to be the same old girl who lets haters drag me down and tell me how shitty i am and trouble my friends to get me out of my ditch again.
I want to be stronger, and i want to come across as that.
I believe i will have every ounce of energy i need to confront the people who dislike me if i ever need to, and i am thankful i have come all the way here.
From the girl who let herself keep quiet in the past, to someone who would stand up for herself at least.
I'm grateful for what i've been through, that made me who i am today.
And even if i crumble with this feeling again, i know one day i'll be back better.
I can't wait for the day where everything just falls into place.
I will have my own home, family, friends, and all.
I will wake up to the most gorgeous face i'll ever see walk on the face of Earth. (and even if he is not the most perfect thing on Earth, i believe i'll love him to be just that)
I'll have people to go to when i need comfort and all.
I will have everything i need.
As i grow older, i've slowly come to realize the difference between want and need.
It's a fine line, but i just started to appreciate how fine that line is.
It's pretty amazing to know such differences even exist.
So far the only thing i need (and the only thing i want) is the same,
and i believe i'll find it one day.
Joy
I actually dk how long it has been since i last posted.
And also how long it has been since i was this obsessed with an idol HAHAHA.
(he's the one flippin' - my heart that is)
And i cannot stand how he looks so so so so SO good in glasses.
Damn cute hahahhahaha.
How much God must love him to bless him with such heaven-sent looks.
-dies-
BUT I FIND THESE PICTURES VERY ATTRACTIVE.
I think he is cute too but yknow i just like Mino (the guy above) better.
Winner (the name of the group these 2 cuties are in) is going to be the death of me hahahhaa.
Slightly grainy (?) and faded ?
Kind of give me the vintage feel.
I appreciate it alot.
I just love those photos alot.
It would be so meaningful if one day i went travelling and documented all my journeys with these photos.
I'd display them all over my room.
And drift into dreams with the best memories all laid out.
Oh but going back to the boys, i just think they are really cute HAHAHA.
Probably will hyperventilate if i ever got to witness their perfection in reality but damn.
For now, pictures are more than enough to kill me HAHHAHA.
Ok but i just ended my attachment recently and i already miss the children.
On the last day i swear it was a losing battle between me and my tears but i only teared up a little and i did not bawl my eyes out even though i really thought i would have.
I'm pretty glad to know i have some self-control over myself.
(It sounds so pathetic, like i've never fully been in control of myself -- but i assure you i am most of the time ya)
And and and things haven't been going too smoothly for me with regards to relationships with people but i feel like i've been there and done that so i'm actually not as affected.
I have come to accept the fact that my personality is not something everyone will like and some people prefer quieter and more calm people, or just someone who is not me.
I get it.
I just don't feel like i would deserve any obvious signs of hate at least.
At the very least, i do not feel like i have shown any amount of dislike towards the people who disdain me.
And while i assure you that i am in control of myself most of the time, it is also assured that i am the scariest when i get angry while i am in control.
Because that probably means i've weighed out the pros and cons of doing what i am doing and it shows that losing that person means no shit to me and it would never be a big deal.
So basically you're not enough for me.
I rarely get that feel, but i obviously learnt from past mistakes that some people just don't deserve it i guess.
I don't want to be the same old girl who lets haters drag me down and tell me how shitty i am and trouble my friends to get me out of my ditch again.
I want to be stronger, and i want to come across as that.
I believe i will have every ounce of energy i need to confront the people who dislike me if i ever need to, and i am thankful i have come all the way here.
From the girl who let herself keep quiet in the past, to someone who would stand up for herself at least.
I'm grateful for what i've been through, that made me who i am today.
And even if i crumble with this feeling again, i know one day i'll be back better.
I can't wait for the day where everything just falls into place.
I will have my own home, family, friends, and all.
I will wake up to the most gorgeous face i'll ever see walk on the face of Earth. (and even if he is not the most perfect thing on Earth, i believe i'll love him to be just that)
I'll have people to go to when i need comfort and all.
I will have everything i need.
As i grow older, i've slowly come to realize the difference between want and need.
It's a fine line, but i just started to appreciate how fine that line is.
It's pretty amazing to know such differences even exist.
So far the only thing i need (and the only thing i want) is the same,
and i believe i'll find it one day.
Joy
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