Too late ;

Hello !

So if you know , i got back my 'O' level results today .

I have to say it was average , just not what i expected it to be . 

I got 12 for my L1R4 and L1R5 is 16 . 

It does not suck la , not to rub it in the face of others , but ya la . 

It's just not as good as i wanted it to be . 

This also dashed my dreams of taking the psychology course in poly . 

My parents are super pressurizing . 

It's like fml man . 

I have no idea what i want to do , there isn't a single other place i want to go to other than being in psychology . 

Like really . 

This sucks . 

I really wished i studied harder for my sciences . 

Even my Amath got a b3 , but my sciences is like ..

Dafuq happened LOL .

I SPENT SO MUCH TIME ON THEM . 

GODDAMMIT . 

Why did i waste precious time on it ? 

I should have practiced other subjects more . 

Sure there are other people worse off than me and i should probably suck it up and just get over it . 

But honestly , if you were in my shoes , can you do that ? 

You have no idea what it's like to want to run away from your home everytime it's time to get your results . 

Just because you know you'll never be good enough for your mum . 

And she'll still look down on you . 

And will still think you suck .

It's just ..

Extremely depressing . 

Let's just say i have lost all hope LOL .

I also lost faith in my most trusted friend . 

I'm such a loser . 

Honestly i'm not sure if i'll wake up tomorrow and be happy about this shit , but i think i'm done . 

At least this is over . 

I'll just deal with it , find another route , and maybe like what JunHao says , i'll fall in love with the new course i go to . 

Maybe even deeper than i would with Psychology . 

I just hope all turns out well . 

xxx

Goodnight . 

My sis is such a cutie patootie . 

But only at times . 

Sorry this post was so heavy . 

I need some time to get over it . 

Thanks for all your goodluck wishes ! 

I have received them well . 

My 'O's just ruined my birthday .

#painsofajanbaby

Joy