Don't Ever Look Back ;
I cannot believe i'm blogging more often than ever in the times where i should be extremely focused on my work but i truly am struggling to cope with school and everything just seems to be going wrong.
So far i am unable to find the DAMNED book that i'm supposed to read tomorrow from 2 freaking libraries.
(LIKE PLEASE GET YO SHIT TOGETHER NLB)
If the books are freaking unavailable, MARK THEM UNAVAILABLE AND DON'T WASTE MY TIME MAKING TRIPS DOWN TO YOUR USELESS LIBRARY.
Don't get me wrong, i love libraries and i love books but THIS PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH.
And the librarians were all so afraid of trouble, like please.
WTF.
This affects my GPA, of course it's troublesome for you but THIS COULD BRING DOWN MY WHOLE LIFE.
Oh gosh i'm so annoyed.
Not to mention my sister's snarky comments did nothing but fan the anger in my heart.
I am truly pissed.
Everything is just not helping me.
It's like everything just decides to crumble down onto you all at once.
Do lecturers forget that they are only teaching one module for us but we have several other modules to submit assignments for?
And that the children are so young and they are expecting us to keep up with all the assessments on them when they should really be enjoying their time in school?
Here we are preaching about how young children should be freely expressing and learning things at their own pace, constructing their own knowledge.
And yet we judge them according to the 'normal' rubrics and label them incompetent.
Are all of these what the children would like to know we think of them?
Why don't assignments focus on enhancing the children's strengths but focus so damn much on improving the children's weaknesses?
Why do we choose to highlight the worst of the children and not the best of them?
They have so many talents and yet we choose to look at all the things they cannot do.
Teachers are hypocrites.
I feel ashamed that i am doing this.
For a result on a paper that not everyone will see, but all employers will judge me upon.
They will look at the number and decide if i am capable enough for them, regardless of the amount of work i am able to do.
People won't even know me by my GPA, and yet that is all what the teachers care about.
I don't know how to feel about this.
Perhaps i'm just really tired and this is killing me so much on the inside.
I am truly sick and tired of school.
There was so much more time for other things to be done but the lecturers all seem to think they are being extremely kind to have our submissions all clumped up together and overlapping so i shall humbly accept their kindness.
On a side note, please kill me oh god.
So far i am unable to find the DAMNED book that i'm supposed to read tomorrow from 2 freaking libraries.
(LIKE PLEASE GET YO SHIT TOGETHER NLB)
If the books are freaking unavailable, MARK THEM UNAVAILABLE AND DON'T WASTE MY TIME MAKING TRIPS DOWN TO YOUR USELESS LIBRARY.
Don't get me wrong, i love libraries and i love books but THIS PISSES ME OFF SO MUCH.
And the librarians were all so afraid of trouble, like please.
WTF.
This affects my GPA, of course it's troublesome for you but THIS COULD BRING DOWN MY WHOLE LIFE.
Oh gosh i'm so annoyed.
Not to mention my sister's snarky comments did nothing but fan the anger in my heart.
I am truly pissed.
Everything is just not helping me.
It's like everything just decides to crumble down onto you all at once.
Do lecturers forget that they are only teaching one module for us but we have several other modules to submit assignments for?
And that the children are so young and they are expecting us to keep up with all the assessments on them when they should really be enjoying their time in school?
Here we are preaching about how young children should be freely expressing and learning things at their own pace, constructing their own knowledge.
And yet we judge them according to the 'normal' rubrics and label them incompetent.
Are all of these what the children would like to know we think of them?
Why don't assignments focus on enhancing the children's strengths but focus so damn much on improving the children's weaknesses?
Why do we choose to highlight the worst of the children and not the best of them?
They have so many talents and yet we choose to look at all the things they cannot do.
Teachers are hypocrites.
I feel ashamed that i am doing this.
For a result on a paper that not everyone will see, but all employers will judge me upon.
They will look at the number and decide if i am capable enough for them, regardless of the amount of work i am able to do.
People won't even know me by my GPA, and yet that is all what the teachers care about.
I don't know how to feel about this.
Perhaps i'm just really tired and this is killing me so much on the inside.
I am truly sick and tired of school.
There was so much more time for other things to be done but the lecturers all seem to think they are being extremely kind to have our submissions all clumped up together and overlapping so i shall humbly accept their kindness.
On a side note, please kill me oh god.
I hope the lecturers sleep well at night knowing that their students are staying up late to continue their assignments now, in order to keep up with what they all call a "healthy social life" in the day.
I strongly believe that the very people who deemed our mental and emotional health was also the one who made others believe that it was unimportant in the first place.
Goodnight friends.
Joy
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