War Zone ;

Why hello there.

I'm really supposed to be doing work now, but i just feel like venting out abit of what has been taking up too much space in my brain.

I don't know if it's the book i've just finished or the amount of stress, 

but i feel horrifically upset today.

Me Before You was a freaking good read by the way, totally recommending it for all to read.

It makes me feel so so so much, and it reminds me to love the people i have now.

It was so good i almost cried in class, if not for the fact that my lecturer was almost always looking at me in my eyes when i did look up from my book LOL.

(i was left with so few pages of the book, and it was the climax, surely you would want to finish it too?)

Anyhow, i finished the book and class with no biggies or tears rolling out so yes.

-accomplished-

Hmm.. 

The rest of the things that took my world by storm are just very very messy.

I'm almost used to the mess that i always seem to find my way back to.

Every time i think i'm finally over that, another monsoon seems to find me. 

:/

So yes, i'm quite committed to throwing my life into a hurricane IDK WHY.

Life seems to have it tough for me. 

But it's okay, i hope that it's only to remind me to appreciate the good days more. 

And i promise you, i do keep count of my blessings. 

I'd never let myself overlook the good in all that i have, even in the darkest times.

It's a life motto kind of thing. 

I wish i'll ALWAYS be able to steer my life in that direction - BE F*CKING GRATEFUL.

Because i was a spoiled brat once and honestly even i don't like that very much myself, so i'm determined to change. :D

(aren't you people lucky to meet the not-so-annoying version of me)

((still annoying but WAYYYYYY better now. :p))

There are so many things that could bring me down now and i'm afraid i'll let them.

Reasons to be happy still:

1) I have friends who support me. (even if my closest of them all has distanced)

2) I'm only left with 1 submission this week.

3) I still have books at home to read.

4) I have a home to go back to.

5) I just made a new friend today. (not really new but we have a newfound meaning to our friendship heheh)

6) I'm making progress on my paper.

7) I have plans to look forward to over the holidays.

8) My family are all alive and well.

9) I'm still alive.

10) I have butter cookies. (YAS COOKIES)

11) I still have my job and i can earn more money yay.

12) I'm wearing my favourite shoes out today. :D 

13) Holidays are next week.

14) I have no CTs. (MAJOR WIN)

15) I still have someone to hold my pieces together even if i crumble.

I'm a lucky child. 

Better days are ahead. 

*fingers crossed*

Joy