Frayed . Greyed . ;

HEYYYY PEEPO .

Anyway . 

Today i felt like talking about my past a little in case you never heard of it . 

I was an arrogant bitch who could do nothing , and had nothing , and thought for no one but myself . 

I kinda changed a little after i got to know my friends . 

Then i thought about others more , learnt how to share , became more affectionate and stuff . 

Honestly , i couldn't get used to being hugged in the past by Claudia , but now we are erm . Almost like real mother and child like please . More than just friends . 

I used to be pampered and spoilt by my dad but i grew out of it . 

Hmm let's just say i tend to spoil people more nowadays . 

Mm though i like being pampered but thinking about others made me happier ! 

I'm often judged because i'm good with guys . 

Err most of my guy friends in secondary school don't even consider me as a girl anymore . 

They treat me more like a brother so don't misunderstand ! 

Since young i wasn't good with girls because i'm a really blunt talker and i tend to hurt their feelings . (As seen from my sister and close friends who eventually left) 

Claudia was kinda the first few who could stand it . 

My primary school friends were like my second family and they still are . 

If you hurt them i might kill you . 

I don't know if they would do the same for me but i feel safe around them since they are always there .

Idk . We're just that close . 

But i was violent and harsher back then . 

I wouldn't say i'm less violent but i control my anger better now . 

I vent it less . 

From someone who was against cursing i curse relatively fluent now . 

Yeah i really changed alot for those who can't get used to it . 

I don't blame others for picking on me i guess . 

Not that i act noble . I'm not . 

I picked on others sometimes too . 

(At least i think so) 

I did alot of bad things , was the most rebellious in sec 2 . 

Now i can't wait to get home and get out of Anderson . 

That's what i think deep down . 

I choose not to regret this anymore and like be more positive about this - at least i met QiaoXuan and Claudia through this . 

But deep down i still dislike this place la . 

Or maybe i just hate school lol . 

Ok so i just think my readers have a choice of staying on or leaving with regards to my past . 

Like , i wouldn't force you to read my blog , being someone who isn't that 'thankful' for everything , nor did i have a glorious past to brag on on my website . 

Just wanted to rant it out a little . 

And try to let you know more about the person behind her phone , blogging shit about her life , making it seem like she's perfect . 

I'm not . 

Ok ?

Joy