The Days Ahead ;
These few days have just been incredibly tiring.
Maybe mentally, maybe physically, maybe both.
It's like every single time i try to let myself loose and just be content with feeling happy, something has to come along to remind me that life is not always a bed of roses and basically remind me who's boss.
Intern has been tough for my action research and everything is just so taxing?
I can't help but feel like some of the teachers dislike me or the way i do things.
And Children's Day is this week so the teachers are all busy with presents while i have to help pack the school's gifts and all.
Basically those adjunct teachers. Which is kinda what i am supposed to do now that i've went to clarify the meaning of the word 'adjunct.
But i don't know if i'll be able to gain anything from doing all of these other than understanding that being a teacher means a lot of work to do. :')
Also, my mum's birthday is in an hour?
Obviously i got things prepared because i'm always 110% filial ok.
But issues surfaced while bringing dinner up and i feel so weird about it.
Idk la hor.
I've said what i have to and i feel like the number of people who dislike me just keep climbing.
And right when i've finally accepted the fact that 'yes today has been shit and i'm done.', my sis has to come along and be so grumpy today over small problems and i just feel desperate for an outlet to rant my thoughts.
Things have been so hard for me.
Maybe it's the fact that i'm not mentally strong enough to tide the rest of myself through this storm but seriously. I just want to bask in my sunlight for a little longer.
However, we all know: life chooses the most cruel ways to break your bubble.
And i'm just another victim.
:')
I'll just have to keep swimming and keep myself afloat.
If you've been having a rough time lately too, just know you're not alone and that there'll always be people who are willing to listen to you talk shit about everything and help you through it all okay?
And if you tell me you have no one for you, there is always me!
Joy will tide you through the darker days.
Maybe mentally, maybe physically, maybe both.
It's like every single time i try to let myself loose and just be content with feeling happy, something has to come along to remind me that life is not always a bed of roses and basically remind me who's boss.
Intern has been tough for my action research and everything is just so taxing?
I can't help but feel like some of the teachers dislike me or the way i do things.
And Children's Day is this week so the teachers are all busy with presents while i have to help pack the school's gifts and all.
Basically those adjunct teachers. Which is kinda what i am supposed to do now that i've went to clarify the meaning of the word 'adjunct.
But i don't know if i'll be able to gain anything from doing all of these other than understanding that being a teacher means a lot of work to do. :')
Also, my mum's birthday is in an hour?
Obviously i got things prepared because i'm always 110% filial ok.
But issues surfaced while bringing dinner up and i feel so weird about it.
Idk la hor.
I've said what i have to and i feel like the number of people who dislike me just keep climbing.
And right when i've finally accepted the fact that 'yes today has been shit and i'm done.', my sis has to come along and be so grumpy today over small problems and i just feel desperate for an outlet to rant my thoughts.
Things have been so hard for me.
Maybe it's the fact that i'm not mentally strong enough to tide the rest of myself through this storm but seriously. I just want to bask in my sunlight for a little longer.
However, we all know: life chooses the most cruel ways to break your bubble.
And i'm just another victim.
:')
I'll just have to keep swimming and keep myself afloat.
If you've been having a rough time lately too, just know you're not alone and that there'll always be people who are willing to listen to you talk shit about everything and help you through it all okay?
And if you tell me you have no one for you, there is always me!
Joy will tide you through the darker days.
Joy
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