Reflection ;

Hi thereeeeeeeeeeeeee.
I'm back with a post that just rambles on and on.
So if you don't really like that, i think you can skip this post HEHEHE.

But lately things have been calming down alot and i can finally clear my mind to see more things the way they should be seen.
It's like everything seems to be wrong where i started so i feel extremely bad.
I don't know where i should start to change things.
There seems to be too many a times where i screw up and it can't be fixed.
So from there it piles up.
It goes higher.
I'm guessing the stack is pretty high by now.
                                                                                 head.
                                                                          my
                                                              above
                                                     roof
                                             the
                                    than
                        higher
              even
Perhaps

I don't know, it just feels bad to know that the fault lies in something that has been long set in stone and i cannot do anything to make it better.
It's bugging me so much, i feel bad for the people around me that has to suffer the same as i do because i pulled them in on this. T.T

I don't know la but this feeling is so similar to guilt and helplessness, it sucks. :<

This could very well be a few steps away from the beginning, but i am already looking forward to the end of it.





I just want to be happy and i hope it's not that hard.
At least, don't let me ruin the happiness i have at hand.

Joy