Rough Start ;

It's been a really tough start to 2015 with these issues.
But i am trying very very heard to be strong for all of you right now.
I hate worrying people.
I hate crying.
I hate hurting other people.
I hate lying.

But somewhere, somehow, i ended up doing many many of these.

There is a reason why i hate myself,
and there is a reason why there is saying that goes "life has its ups and downs".
I know i've not been the kind of person someone would be proud to have around,
but i am trying.
Really.
Trust me.

I am.

Trying so so hard to keep my cool.
Using other things as a distraction to what is really tearing my world apart.
Even assignments seem more bearable.

I will come back with a happier post soon okay?
For now, please forgive me for being selfish and dampening your spirits with my emotional posts.
This probably won't be the last..
But it'd be better that i tell you how life has been equal to all of us.
That life hasn't always been a bed of roses for me, too.

But hey, it goes on. Life goes on. Time continues moving.
The world doesn't stop for you.

Let's stay strong together.

I love all of you for sticking with me through my hardest times.

Thank you.

For everything.

Joy

Life without you has been different.

I hope life without me has been better.