Youth ;

Hi guyssss .

Recently fell in love with a youtube channel with sick songs.

It's called Majestic Casual!

I never thought i'd like songs like that because they are quite electronic (which sometimes cause headaches for me), but these are really good.

I especially like "Youth" by Daughter and "Your Girl" by Tourist.

So yeah, you can check them out and see if we have the same taste in music.

And another thing i really like about them is their pictures used in their videos. 

So on point. The photos are so darn gorgeous. Ugh.

xD

Probably not, but hey there's a chance i will find someone with a similar taste in music!

(yeah.. I haven't met someone like that yet)

Sigh, I've been so angsty these few days omg i need to calm down.

:c

I don't even know what made me feel that way, or made me so irritable.

Sian.

Yknow, i've been thinking about how things could be different if i made a choice differently.

And i'm actually not sure how i'd like it that way, but i'm starting to feel the strain.

Lord please bless me with strength to pull through this.

I'm not a believer but i need help.

Life hasn't been going easy on me, and time seems to fly by while i'm stuck in my rut.

Really been wondering what is stopping me from moving on.

It's not everyday you see me being unhappy with being busy or flooded with work to do.

I've always been very happy to be occupied.

But nowadays i've just been so unhappy that i have not had time to myself.

I really need to get my shit together.

And i really need to figure out what's wrong with me before i start lashing out at more people for no reason.

UGH I'M SO FRUSTRATED WITH MYSELF.

WHY ARE THERE SO MANY PROBLEMS TO SOLVE AT ONCE.

Oh god this is so hard.

Starting to feel the stress kicking in.

Please, please let me hang on till the end.

I should probably start on my revision.

But there's so much on my mind.

I can barely think straight.

I feel slightly choked and suffocated but it has come to an extent i can't tell who has their hands on my neck, and at this point, i'd much rather be the one dying than them.

The doubt of whether i'd run away from those glaring headlights and a blaring horn keeps coming to my mind. And i've never gotten a positive answer till now.

So done with life.

And in her head head grew

A list of things she'd

Done wrong, names she'd

Been called, and mistakes

She'd made. Slowly, these

Were the things she

Became.

-Julie Martinez

Joy