Then There Were Two ;
HI PEOPLE .
ok so the good news is my swell on my finger got ALOT better and i'm so thankful .
like . from today , it's probably not broken ?
but i'm gonna go check , just in case .
SIGH . really hate this kinda things the most .
and results coming out on friday .
arghhh . stress .
OH AND GUYS .
PLEASE AH .
don't do stupid shit cos of bad results ok .
like i used to panic so much about bad results (and i still do) ,
i break out in cold sweat during important exams and blank out .
i scored even worse because of this issue .
i couldn't cope with the stress and everything .
plus my circle of friends then was really small so i didn't really have alot of people to fall back on .
I RESORTED TO ALOT OF NOT-SO-GOOD METHODS .
like .
i often scratched myself with my fingers all over my limbs .
idk why but that comforted me a lot .
even till now , when i do presentations , i sometimes still have some scratches if you realise .
:<
sorry la bopian i super perfectionist but i also have super low self-esteem .
wlao i want to crai siah .
BUT .
THAT'S NOT THE POINT .
please don't learn from me ah thanks .
i'm a really bad example most of the times .
LOL .
moving on !!!!
today is my last day in the kindergarten .
holy shit i had to maintain so damn hard to not cry because i was extremely attached to the K2 children .
sigh omg .
T.T
the K1 not so much but i had to try damn hard not to get the feels .
CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT THE QUIETEST CHILDREN CAME UP TO HUG ME GOODBYE ???
holy shit my heart dieded .
and the K2s are just ..
i cannot .
one of them was like "CHER . WHEN YOU COME BACK , WE BUY YOU CAKE OK ?"
shit i almost burst out crying at that sentence , i had to avoid all their eyes .
THEY DIDN'T UNDERSTAND I WOULDN'T SEE THEM .
ok i going back to help but i won't see most of them definitely .
cos most of them are performing .
this is so sad .
we were finally getting close .
on the bright side, they were super clingy this whole week because they knew i was leaving soon and that made me feel damn good .
AND .
HEHEHE .
I CUDDLED MY BABY a.k.a R for awhile today .
and my bias N .
TEEHEE .
i really should be satisfied with these little achievements but can't help to feel that i could have done so much more .
sigh .
it has been a truly enriching experience in PCF Sembawang !!
Thank you to all the teachers and parents who have kindly allowed me to hang around their children even though i might seem like some suspicious person who is kinda like .
a pedo .i guess ?
i swear i'm not pedo ok .
and i'm truly blessed to have survived all my previous pains to get here.
thank you for making it worth it .
Joy
ok so the good news is my swell on my finger got ALOT better and i'm so thankful .
like . from today , it's probably not broken ?
but i'm gonna go check , just in case .
SIGH . really hate this kinda things the most .
and results coming out on friday .
arghhh . stress .
OH AND GUYS .
PLEASE AH .
don't do stupid shit cos of bad results ok .
like i used to panic so much about bad results (and i still do) ,
i break out in cold sweat during important exams and blank out .
i scored even worse because of this issue .
i couldn't cope with the stress and everything .
plus my circle of friends then was really small so i didn't really have alot of people to fall back on .
I RESORTED TO ALOT OF NOT-SO-GOOD METHODS .
like .
i often scratched myself with my fingers all over my limbs .
idk why but that comforted me a lot .
even till now , when i do presentations , i sometimes still have some scratches if you realise .
:<
sorry la bopian i super perfectionist but i also have super low self-esteem .
wlao i want to crai siah .
BUT .
THAT'S NOT THE POINT .
please don't learn from me ah thanks .
i'm a really bad example most of the times .
LOL .
moving on !!!!
today is my last day in the kindergarten .
holy shit i had to maintain so damn hard to not cry because i was extremely attached to the K2 children .
sigh omg .
T.T
the K1 not so much but i had to try damn hard not to get the feels .
CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT THE QUIETEST CHILDREN CAME UP TO HUG ME GOODBYE ???
holy shit my heart dieded .
and the K2s are just ..
i cannot .
one of them was like "CHER . WHEN YOU COME BACK , WE BUY YOU CAKE OK ?"
shit i almost burst out crying at that sentence , i had to avoid all their eyes .
THEY DIDN'T UNDERSTAND I WOULDN'T SEE THEM .
ok i going back to help but i won't see most of them definitely .
cos most of them are performing .
this is so sad .
we were finally getting close .
on the bright side, they were super clingy this whole week because they knew i was leaving soon and that made me feel damn good .
AND .
HEHEHE .
I CUDDLED MY BABY a.k.a R for awhile today .
and my bias N .
TEEHEE .
i really should be satisfied with these little achievements but can't help to feel that i could have done so much more .
sigh .
it has been a truly enriching experience in PCF Sembawang !!
Thank you to all the teachers and parents who have kindly allowed me to hang around their children even though i might seem like some suspicious person who is kinda like .
a pedo .i guess ?
i swear i'm not pedo ok .
and i'm truly blessed to have survived all my previous pains to get here.
thank you for making it worth it .
Joy
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