Hohoho ;

MERRY CHRISTMAS GUYS ! 

Don't mean to ruin your christmas for you , but it really sucks that i'm fighting with one of the most important person in my life now . 

Like . NOW . 

It's so annoying . 

Like , i WAS annoying . 

And i did apologise for it . 

Not once , thrice . 

He's not even replying , it's making me go crazy ! 

And it's freaking frustrating because of the next fact :

We are not even together .

We're just friends and it made me think alot about what i actually expect out of this poor guy over this time la . 

Like , we are not together , but we are as close as (according to my sister) some old couple that have been married since forever . 

And everybody thinks we're crazy made for each other but i think he's not sensitive enough . 

Or maybe i'm not . 

I overthink too frequently but i really care and i feel like killing him .

Goddammit . 

Even my colleagues think i'm really gloomy and quiet today siah .

I'm gonna go home and bawl my eyes out again tonight LOL .

I COULDN'T DO THAT WHEN MY SIS MADE ME SLEEP WITH HER LAST NIGHT . 

It feels really bad cos i apologised , for saying what i felt . 

At that point in time .

I might be harsh but that WAS what i was thinking . 

I feel like murdering him .

-repeats because idk why i'm really agitated now-

IDK ANYMORE OK .

This is the worst christmas ever god .

Why do i have to have weird relationships . 

If i ever do this again i'll kill myself .

Because i think this breaks me more than it does to him . 

And is it really so unreasonable of me to be mad at him because he made me go home early for him to play his games ? 

IS IT THAT MEAN OF ME ? 

Really ? 

This is so damn annoying . 

I gave up btw . 

He saw my text but doesn't reply . 

Freak this . 

Die you piece of shit . 

I hate all this crap .

And btw , we're not couple fighting hor . 

Stop this . 

Joy