Lucky Strike ;

Hello friends.

How have you been?

How has life been treating you? 

Life has been quite kind to me lately.

In the last post, I was just talking about how I might never find the love I was looking for.

I guess love truly comes knocking on the door when you least expect it.

I was ready to give up on love when I found you.

Perhaps, I'm still not ready to fully believe that love feels this good.

That this is how love is meant to be - easy, natural, comfortable.

That I don't have to try so hard to be deserving of the love that you so readily give me.

That this is real life, not fantasy, and that this could be the rest of my life.

I don't know about you guys, but do you have this nagging fear when you're the happiest, that you might just lose it all someday? 

Sometimes I do, and it just feels so... Weird. 

Because I don't think there will come a day I'd rather not have this. 

Even if there were what ifs, buts, and more. 

Life has been kind to me.

Before I bring more attention to the most important person in my life, I wanted to share some of my favourite snippets from my trip to Korea with my COUSIN.

The number of DMs we got from our friends asking about our relationship, and the number of times we had to clarify that we're family, is madness.

Morning fitchecks were the best HAHA

The sun in Korea was just unforgiving man :") 

I came back 2 shades darker

This is a store called Butter, and trust me when I tell you we went into every outlet we walked past.

It was... adorable. I wanted to throw money at the store.

Did I also mention the store had PERFECT aesthetics????

No, like seriously. The aesthetics were just *chef's kiss*

Cousin: "Look intimidating and send your boyfriend"

Also us: looking absolutely RIDICULOUS

There were so many more moments from Korea, but I think my IG stories already did them enough justice.

Otherwise, the rest of the photos and videos are now fond memories, and I'll forever treasure them.

This is the first time I've been on a trip with my cousin, and it's been such an interesting experience. 

We definitely learnt more about each other, and I think it's just... Refreshing.

To know that someone you grew up with, still has so many more sides to them you don't get to see normally.

I love that.

I love knowing someone more.

It's such a privilege, and I'm so lucky I get this opportunity to learn more again about my cousin as we grow older. 

Alright, back to my favourite topic as of late.

I'm introducing my boyfriend to my blog. :>

It's so funny because I'm introducing my partner to readers whom I don't always know. 

But I guess it's still significant. 

Afterall, you found this blog, and you're reading my posts.

I've been smiling, laughing, and also feeling a lot more lately, thanks to him.

I've been feeling like the luckiest person in this universe, to have met a soul that fits mine.

To find someone who holds me dear. 

To find someone who treasures me more than I've ever treasured myself.

I've posted so many sappy posts about how love has been for me.

How I never understood what it really means to love.

How I struggled to understand what love really entails - what is good, what is bad, what is toxic, what is healthy.

And in the blink of an eye, here I am.

In my healthiest relationship.

One that makes me want to be a better person.

One that inspires me to do more each day.

One that motivates me to change.

I've always ran away in the face of conflict and difficulties.

I avoided relying on others in fear of being seen as a burden, and abandoned.

I hated showing weakness because I didn't want it to be taken advantage of. 

I didn't want to lose.

He makes me shed my shield, armour, and spear.

He holds me so tenderly, I wish I could melt into him sometimes.

He's created a safe space between his arms, just for me, and I just want to stay here forever. 

He gave me renewed hope, that love really exists.

In him I found comfort.

I found belonging.

I found home.

I'm happy now.

I guess, my point is - please don't give up.

If someone like me could find love in the weirdest of places, I'm sure you will too.

I'm very very sure now, that love does exist for everyone.

Perhaps not in the form we thought it would come in, but it exists.

It will creep up on you one day, and suddenly you're enveloped in a sea of love.

Just like you always deserved.

And I know you deserve it. 

After all the sad days we've been through together, I struck lottery and I feel like I might just win in life this time round.

I hope you feel like that some day too.

I sincerely wish you happiness.

Ben, I know you're reading this.

Thank you for walking into my life.

For choosing to stay in my life.

For making my heart your permanent residence.

I'm very grateful for you.

So, here's to you.

Here's to us.

Here's to our life ahead. :)

Thank you all for following me on my journey. 

I think I found my forever destination.

May you find yours.

Good night. :)

Please be happier.

Joy