Nothing's Good Enough ;

Days have flew by so fast over the last few months!

So... There's quite alot to note.

I've officially completed 4 months with Safe Space! 
That also means i was confirmed already as an employee.

I think a huge thing that hit me was how little i felt like i was working.

I truly enjoyed everyday i was working, and i guess the saying is true:

"Find a job you love, and you'll never have to work another day".

I work everyday, but it never feels like work enough for me to hate it.

I'm grateful to have met so many new friends, kind superiors, colleagues, and more.

This was me and Vicky at the Gem Museum, exploring together hehe.

Life truly has a way of bringing you to the right places.

I think i finally found a corporate place i want to stay longer in.

The last 4 months were a blur, but i'm so happy that i really didn't mind.

Of course, there were days i was so tired and weighed down by everything else, but i think it's worth it. 

Today is worth it.

I think it's quite obvious that i ended my previous relationship, and i also think this is my first time putting it out there explicitly that i ended any relationships.

I used to feel like it's just something that should settle down in my own mind before i speak of it to anyone else, but i guess as time passes, it gets easier to accept that if it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out.

The only thing that becomes a harder pill to swallow as i age is that nagging feeling i'm lagging behind everyone else at the back of my mind.

The small voice that tells me i don't have much longer to find someone to settle down with.

To fulfil my dreams of travelling the world together, not rushing for kids, waiting for BTO, etc.

I know it isn't true though.

That we all run on our own clocks, and that i'm not late, i'm right on time.

But, i guess the 'tradition' (?) of marrying before 30 is something i always wanted.

Not that my parents married before 30 either.

It's a weird feeling.

To be 25, single, happy, and still craving for something - or someone - more.

It's most important that i'm happy, and that's about all.

Right?

The rest will figure itself out.

Right?

I know it will, but i'm losing faith, and all of a sudden, making plans for myself doesn't seem so bad at all. 

I mean, at least all the money i earn is for myself to spend, so there's that.

All of the emotional baggage aside! 

The past weekend was busy af.

Pesta Sukan went down, and i saw many many many old friends again.

Also coaches.

But more of the friends and juniors.

I've known this dude since i was 7????

And ever since we graduated primary school we lost contact. 

Until i knew of him being in RP when i was in NP.

Both in Taekwondo.

Then, came TOC in 2019 where we reconnected for abit:

So... 3 years and a medal later, we're back at it.

Chatted up a storm, caught up over the past 18 years we missed out on each others' lives. 

Feels like everything has changed, but at the same time, nothing has changed.

Time really passes so quickly.

I wish i held on to my days a little tighter.

Joy