Ordinary People ;

Finally back after a really long hiatus.
I took some time to find myself again and get back on my own two feet.

We've had some tough days, and it was a pretty rough start to 2020 if i'm not going to lie.
I've introduced myself to my readers every year, and i feel like this year, i don't want to have to introduce myself for you to see my growth.
Instead of me telling you where i feel like i've grown, i hope my actions, words and thoughts will carry that message to you!
(I swear it's not just because i'm lazy)

It's been a really rough end to 2019.
There were lots of messes to clean up - my heart, brain and space.

I finally got to rearranging my desk and shelves so that helped make my room new, cleaner space.
Not to mention our house got some fresh new paint man.
(Thank you)

My birthday was celebrated by few but it has never felt more meaningful :")
It's always part of growing up that the circle of friends you hang out with gets smaller, and it morphs into people who will really stick with you through thick and thin.
I think i found my circle i'm comfortable with for a long time and it makes me feel the slight comfort for awhile.

Who knows, one day these people might find better and move on, but for now, when we all think we're in the right place and time to be nurturing each other, i'll appreciate it while it lasts.

OH!
I don't know if i've mentioned it on here before, but after my last breakup, i actually tied an anklet on myself.
I let myself be chained by something physical to remind me of what i let pull myself down spiritually.
I think i've been loving myself lesser and lesser as the years go by, and i could never really feel too comfortable in my own skin.
So i guess the anklet was a constant physical reminder to be kinder to myself and let myself be the priority sometimes.

In the last month, i finally managed to cut it off my ankle and i can't actually express the liberation i feel.
It wasn't 100% for sure, but we're all still learning right?
Things will get better from here.





So.
How have things been for you?

Have you been happy and feeling cared for?
Have you been reminded lately that you're loved?
If you're struggling, have you been reminded that you're just an ordinary human and that it's okay to feel lost once in awhile?
Has anyone reminded you that it's normal to feel like crying, to feel completely train-wrecked and still function?

You strong human being who have been walking on your own two feet even when all you feel like you want to do is crash and breakdown.
You brave, brave soul.

I hope 2020 is a year of change for everyone.
Genuinely.

I hope things work out for the better - that we all find a better direction in life, and we find our own happiness.
2020 shall be 20/20 for all of us.

Of course, there's going to be plenty of ups and downs, but i hope all of the ups will outweigh the downs, and make all of this pain worth it.
You'll do so good and we'll all come out of 2020 unscathed, grown, and even more loved.

We survived 2019!
We survived 100% of all of our bad days.
All the days we thought we could never pull through - we lived past all of them to see today and tomorrow.
Let's do what we can to make sure we have plenty of tomorrows to spend together.

Places to go, things to do.
We've got plenty.

YOU'LL BE OKAY.
I LOVE YOU.

We got this!
Come get it 2020!!!

Joy