Trust Issues ;
Hi, i'm back.
With a new set of anxieties.
I got a job!
I'm employed!
I should be feeling more settled, but i'm not.
:-)
Work is kinda still a mess as i settle into my new role.
My routine is kinda set for now.
But i've barely any time for myself.
Let's not mention anything else.
Not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing. I mean, i'm too distracted and tired to figure things out so it kinda gives me less time to think too much.
But also!
That means i stay up extra late with all these insecurities that used to spread out over the day.
They now all only exist right before i sleep. :')
Bless.
I'm learning to be more self-sufficient as days go by and i hope one day i won't depend on anyone to comfort me!
I know, we're all human and we sometimes are weak but i really don't think i can do this.
HAHA.
Depending on other people is a scary thing and i'm afraid i got burned once too many. :')
I'm still finding myself and that's okay.
I've only moved a little further ahead from where i was last i checked and that's okay.
I'm still a mess but that's okay.
I'll be okay.
We'll be okay.
We'll all figure things out in the end and things will all be okay.
:)
I don't believe my own words but one day i'll come to say it cos i really mean it.
Gotta just keep pushing on!
Been feeling a little moody over the past few days but i'm sure things will pass and the sun will shine again and i'll go back to feeling like dancing with happiness.
I know it will.
I hope it will.
So it will.
I'll work to make things better and it'll get better.
I won't think of "what if it doesn't get better", i'll just keep working towards what i want.
Someday i will look back and be proud of what i struggled against and one day it'll all be worth it.
I know it will be worth it.
I hope you know you're not alone in your struggle against life and things will be fine the time you least expect it.
Don't worry too much.
Just keep waking up believing the day will be better and things will eventually get better.
It's hard to believe, but one day it will!
You'll be okay.
I hope tomorrow will be better for everyone!
I'm praying for you. :')
Joy
With a new set of anxieties.
I got a job!
I'm employed!
I should be feeling more settled, but i'm not.
:-)
Work is kinda still a mess as i settle into my new role.
My routine is kinda set for now.
But i've barely any time for myself.
Let's not mention anything else.
Not sure if it's a good thing or a bad thing. I mean, i'm too distracted and tired to figure things out so it kinda gives me less time to think too much.
But also!
That means i stay up extra late with all these insecurities that used to spread out over the day.
They now all only exist right before i sleep. :')
Bless.
I'm learning to be more self-sufficient as days go by and i hope one day i won't depend on anyone to comfort me!
I know, we're all human and we sometimes are weak but i really don't think i can do this.
HAHA.
Depending on other people is a scary thing and i'm afraid i got burned once too many. :')
I'm still finding myself and that's okay.
I've only moved a little further ahead from where i was last i checked and that's okay.
I'm still a mess but that's okay.
I'll be okay.
We'll be okay.
We'll all figure things out in the end and things will all be okay.
:)
I don't believe my own words but one day i'll come to say it cos i really mean it.
Gotta just keep pushing on!
Been feeling a little moody over the past few days but i'm sure things will pass and the sun will shine again and i'll go back to feeling like dancing with happiness.
I know it will.
I hope it will.
So it will.
I'll work to make things better and it'll get better.
I won't think of "what if it doesn't get better", i'll just keep working towards what i want.
Someday i will look back and be proud of what i struggled against and one day it'll all be worth it.
I know it will be worth it.
I hope you know you're not alone in your struggle against life and things will be fine the time you least expect it.
Don't worry too much.
Just keep waking up believing the day will be better and things will eventually get better.
It's hard to believe, but one day it will!
You'll be okay.
I hope tomorrow will be better for everyone!
I'm praying for you. :')
Joy
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