Closing Hours ;

A reminder for anyone who needs this.

I've completed 1/3 of my final examinations.
It still hasn't really sunk in yet that this will be my final trimester studying.
Been feeling a little lost for awhile.
:')

On a brighter note, that means one less thing on my plate!

Oh, and the good news.

I'm signing on with my internship company!
I'm not jobless like i was worried i'd be!!!

I won't be getting a break after i finish exams, but i'm still very excited to be starting employment.

Kinda.


I've also made a decision for my selfish purposes and it's been kinda liberating for my mind.
HAHA.
Like.....

Intending to quit coaching.

It's been a long 2 years plus of coaching for NPTKD, there were plenty of ups and downs, and quite alot of hitches.
Not gonna lie, i feel extremely proud to look at these kids and know that they'll accomplish bigger things, but hey.
I've been remaining stagnant in my own trainings for while now, and i wanna work on myself.
:')

I have a goal for the upcoming year, so i'm gonna do what i can.

With both my coaching journey coming to an end in maybe another 2-3 months after POL-ITE, i wanted to share some notes i received over the past few months that kept me going when the going was tough.

One of my first few texts from a student that made me feel like my efforts were not wasted. :')

I honestly felt like crying when i saw it HAHA.

Thank you :') 

Okay so this was a funny incident - i was feeling a little sick and unsure of what i can do for the kids during our class later.

So i felt the need to apologise in advance because i knew i was gonna be in a shitty, downer mood and i should explain myself beforehand.... Else they'll come to training and just see me lash out at them for nothing.

HAHAHA.

So these kids spammed the chat with all the get well soons. :'''')

I'm not crying - i'm cutting onions.

THIS ONE WAS VERY UNEXPECTED HAHA.

I really wasn't that close to this kid, but it was very very sweet.

I honestly had alot of doubt in my own abilities when i first started out coaching teenagers i have no idea how to talk to.
I'm better with children because they require less effort in engaging conversations in some way.
Like.... There are these same few topics that just always work.

But with teenagers there's just so much personality, it gets hard to work with every individual sometimes.

I'm really really really lucky things all worked out with this bunch and i'm endlessly thankful y'all see me as someone better than who i really am. :"")
Thank you all for trusting me, depending on me, confiding in me, and just constantly listening to my bullshit.
HAHAH.

I'm so freaking glad i took this role up even when i wasn't sure of what i could do. :")










On the topic of texts that made me want to cry.
Here are more.

 To be honest, until today i still don't know how to answer the question.

I haven't thought of myself in some time.

This still stays in my head till now.

Y'all make me sob i swear.

Thank you, to everyone who has sent me messages that made me want to cry.

I know i don't say thank you enough, and i really don't know how to express myself sometimes, but thank you.

I don't know what i did to deserve y'all.
:')



My heart is full.
I hope i made y'all happy at some point in time, y'all really deserve all the happiness in the world.
Thank you.

Joy