One Of Those Days ;

"T o d a y    h a s    b e e n    o n e    o f    t h o s e    d a y s."

It's just tiring to exist.
Even with good things and happy times, it really does get hard to live.
It gets harder to breathe and harder to hang in there while waiting for more good things to come your way.

I have never been a believer and i'd very much not prefer to depend on any celestial beings to achieve what i want in life.
I want real things, real people and real hard work.
I want real trials, and real tests.
I want real rewards and real blessings.

I want to earn everything i want and need.


I want to exit proudly.







Today has just been one of those days.





I've been existing quietly.
I no longer seek attention for people to notice me and my endless thoughts that sometimes don't string together right to form a meaningful enough sentence for everyone.
Other times, the words in my head form too much meaning, no words can represent them well enough.

I can't exactly stop myself.


Things just seem to uncontrollably run through my head and they don't stop.
Just things that make me question myself and listen to myself talk.








Today was one of those days.

I listen to my own thoughts and scoff.
"What a loser i am, thinking all these without actions to back them up."
"Wow, strong? You can barely stand after a light push from people."

"People whom you trusted to only bring you up and not down."






Today was a crappy one of those days.


Because it feels like my entire world is crumbling and the people i seek shelter from will definitely be in danger if i do anything.

I am trapped within this useless body that can only do so much.




Unfortunately, today was one of those days.



Where i realise once again that i am only human and my abilities are only so much.













I am only so much.







Will that be enough for you ?

Joy