Distant Dreams (Nightmares) ;
Hello my friends !
It's been like 2 weeks since i've blogged and yes that marks the start of my internship !
Despite it being only 2 weeks in the centre, i can feel like some of the teachers don't like me already.
And like honestly i haven't even done anything that could have possibly pissed them off because i can't do alot anyway.
*cries*
I'll just hope it's because i don't understand them enough and it'll get better when they know me better too.
But so far internship has been amazing.
All the teachers i were attached to taught me one thing or another, and the teachers that i've never had the privilege of being attached to are very very kind.
I like all of them, and i can truly see why the kids respect them so much because they are so so dedicated in what they do as compared to me.
I kinda feel guilty when i do see all of them work.
Then it sinks in that one day i might be doing that much work or more just for the kids in my class.
And like i'm taking N2s again now, and they're more sensible, so one of the girls actually can count down the number of days left before i go to another class, and she just gets sad about it omg.
I DIED.
Then another boy came up to me and said "I WISH YOU STAY IN OUR CLASS FOREVER."
"You must sit in that chair (points to teacher's chair) next time ok!*
I DIED x 2.
Words like these motivate me to become better and move forward from where i am.
Whether or not i am well-liked by teachers suddenly matter a lot less because i know i don't do things normally, and sometimes people misunderstand or i may come off as annoying (which is very often).
I think the children bring me alot more happiness than i already deserve and it makes me feel good that i'll have an impact on them one day.
Internship is truly satisfying.
Despite the constant deadlines for alot of stuff, i already know it's going to be worth it.
This is going to be a truly enriching experience that'll expose me more to what it's like being a teacher.
20 more weeks to go, we can do this !!!!!!
Also, today marks 6 months.
Thanks for making this journey one that is worthwhile. :D
Love y'all !!
Joy
It's been like 2 weeks since i've blogged and yes that marks the start of my internship !
Despite it being only 2 weeks in the centre, i can feel like some of the teachers don't like me already.
And like honestly i haven't even done anything that could have possibly pissed them off because i can't do alot anyway.
*cries*
I'll just hope it's because i don't understand them enough and it'll get better when they know me better too.
But so far internship has been amazing.
All the teachers i were attached to taught me one thing or another, and the teachers that i've never had the privilege of being attached to are very very kind.
I like all of them, and i can truly see why the kids respect them so much because they are so so dedicated in what they do as compared to me.
I kinda feel guilty when i do see all of them work.
Then it sinks in that one day i might be doing that much work or more just for the kids in my class.
And like i'm taking N2s again now, and they're more sensible, so one of the girls actually can count down the number of days left before i go to another class, and she just gets sad about it omg.
I DIED.
Then another boy came up to me and said "I WISH YOU STAY IN OUR CLASS FOREVER."
"You must sit in that chair (points to teacher's chair) next time ok!*
I DIED x 2.
Words like these motivate me to become better and move forward from where i am.
Whether or not i am well-liked by teachers suddenly matter a lot less because i know i don't do things normally, and sometimes people misunderstand or i may come off as annoying (which is very often).
I think the children bring me alot more happiness than i already deserve and it makes me feel good that i'll have an impact on them one day.
Internship is truly satisfying.
Despite the constant deadlines for alot of stuff, i already know it's going to be worth it.
This is going to be a truly enriching experience that'll expose me more to what it's like being a teacher.
20 more weeks to go, we can do this !!!!!!
Also, today marks 6 months.
Love y'all !!
Joy
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