Compulsive Liar ;

Wassup .

Today has been a pretty cool day . 

Started off fine . 

School was great . 

I even met up with the tkd people to have lunch before i went home . 

 

Amanda photobomb

But i seriously need to rid of my sleeping on the bus thing cos people keep having to wake me up when we reach woodlands . 

That's so awkward . 

Sigh . 

After that i came home, put down my stuff , then headed out to meet my mum again . 

She bought me a pair of maroon converse like . <3 

Thanks mum . 

Nothing had me prepared for the night tho . 

It's been such a great day yknow !!

Ok so i told my sis i was feeling a little left out cos everyone had their stuff to do , my mum was working and busy with household chores, my sis has art and whatever homework to do, and my dad obviously works and he has other stuff as well . 

So everyone has something to focus on except me . 

Since i'm just a freshie i don't really have much workload and i don't really need to do alot . So i'm quite free . 

Now i'm not complaining, but it's just that i like to spend my time going out and mixing around with people . 

However, my family likes it when i'm at home . 

Even if i have nothing to do . 

Then they come complain i use my phone and comp too much . 

Much logic right ? 

I know . 

So my sis decided to tell me parents which made me feel kinda betrayed . 

Like duh i didn't need them to know . 

Then i kinda got angry cos my dad just kept insisting he's not talking to me only cos i'm on my phone . 

Like dude . 

I never use my phone when someone talks to me about something interesting . 

Swear .

I hate that it must always be me who starts a convo . 

I hate that it must always be me to apologise and put down my pride . 

I hate that it must always be me who's at fault . 

Gurl i got feelings too and i'm pretty darn senstitive . 

You have no idea . 

If you were my friend and not my parents we were through a long time back . 

Like i have my own attitude and if you can't communicate with me i think you have no rights to judge those who can . 

Biatch . 

I hate it all . 

Ugh . 

Don't forget : you're the boss of someone and you've got somewhere to release your stress . But i'm just a student who takes all the shit from people like you .

There is a freaking breaking point and i'm pretty sure it's not too far off . 

I'm tired of proving you guys wrong and maybe it's time to switch sides . 

Maybe i am that worthless and stupid and rude and whatever . 

You bring me to this world to tell me i'm not enough . 

Why bring so much pain to both sides ? 

Tch . 

Joy